rat's medication makes him sleepy, so much so he falls asleep in his chair. Sometimes I send him to bed at 7pm. I have asked him to check with the doc about the meds. While he takes them in the evening after he is in for the evening so he is not a danger on the road, it really does cut into time he enjoys on his computer as well as time for us together. Our time together is already limited because of MY health problems.
I try not to do it, but my exhaustion usually takes me out for about 10 minutes in the evening and then I cannot get to sleep until 2-3am in the morning, if at all. Sometimes I do not get a catnap, but still don't sleep at night so I go for 24 or more hours without sleep. Sometimes I have to catch myself at work, nodding off. I have been eating chocolate for the caffeine.
My arthritis went into a nasty flareup during the holiday so half the time I was in bed because I hurt so much. Recently, it settled in my shoulders, which kept me from being able to reach for anything. This shit travels through my body so one day, my shoulders are out, the next it's my upper back, the next, my lower back, the next, my chest, the next, back up into my upper back and neck - which brings on bad headaches... you get the drift. Right now, I have what feels like a large hard lump under one shoulderblade and rat pounds on it to loosen me up (yes, it hurts like hell), and it helps for a while but it comes back. And the pain just adds to the exhaustion.
Consequently, sitting up at home at a computer, after having to sit up at work for eight hours, usually doesn't happen for a long period of time when I get home and I keep my back to the floor and use the laptop as best I can, if my body lets me.
My dolls keep my sanity so I have been concentrating on them to a degree, letting my creativity rest on them for a while. They don't nag or complain amd while they may be hard resin, they still are a comfort and patient models. I can lie in bed and have one close to fiddle with - like a resin cat but without the shedding.
Getting stuff done is a luxury, so the rest of what we need to do to avoid eviction hasn't been touched yet. I may just have to step away from things for a while and work on it, but I also have to work on a class I got wrangled into teaching and gathering those assets will take weeks to do, then they have to be organized. It's true we could use the money, but the stress might kill me first.
I am still working on some belated holiday stuff for people, so stuff will be late.
Still, with all this, rat and I are happy and love each other intensely, and I find that is what is most important to me. I can live with the pain and stress as long as we are together.
Thanks: --> to Lia, my sensei, who has inspired me to draw again. I
wouldn't be doing this without your support, Domo Arigato!
--> to Talon, for sending me her fabulous fics, inspiring me with her writing to draw my first
illustration for a story and actually liking what I drew.
--> to Dasia, for her words of encouragement when drawing her original chara.
--> to Joules, a wonderful epic fic writer, for liking my art enough to want to post them with Talon's
and her own stories.
--> to Lutra, the other half of the epic team, for being so supportive.
--> to Jacque' & Becca Raddittzu, we met on eBay as bidder and sellers and now we are face-to-face
friends. You showed us the real DBZ with your fansubs. It's all your fault the house is full of
doujinshi! *LOL*
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